Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Ken and Chrys are still married

Ken and Chrys are still married.

In one of my recent posts I was referring to some difficult times we have faced in the last couple of years. I do have every intention of writing more about them although for most of you it will only be repetitive. My mom keeps telling me I really need to write about these experiences. I will. I really will.

At any rate... I mentioned that I've seen parents get divorced and I have. I do consider Geoff's parents to be my own. Just to make it perfectly clear, Ken and Chrys are still married. It will be 42 years this December!

Divorce is devastating. It has been one of the hardest things we've had to experience. I hadn't seen Geoff cry until then. We cried together. We cried alot together. Even now thinking about it and the circumstances around the divorce it still makes me cry.

Dinner experience last night

Me and the 4 kids at the table. We were eating our dinner and having conversations. Here's how it went down.

Caleb: "mom, you should be a lunch lady at our school cuz you make yummy food."
Tyler: "yeah mom you should. Guess what nice surprise I found in my taco today?"
Me: "what?"
Tyler: "a big long hair"
All of us: "eeeewwwwwww"
Tyler reaching into his pocket: "yeah and I think I still have the hair. Wanna see it?"

And after the leggy soup I was sure it wouldn't get any more fun.

Yes, Tyler really did save the hair. Why, you might ask??? Me too!!!

Dinner experience 3 nights ago

Caleb: "Mom, this soup has bugs in it"
Me: "no it doesn't. It's just the seasoning I put in it."
Tyler: "Then your seasonings have legs because mine has legs also."

After checking my soup thoroughly I had to concede.

I noticed that I had a bunch of cream cheese in the fridge so I planned to get some milk and broccoli with my food order at the Bishop's Storehouse, which I did. I decided that I would make a huge pot of it and have it for a couple of days. We had it one night without any gliches (concerns about leggy seasoning). It was the second night when we had it for leftovers that the legs were discovered!

I have a huge container of chicken bouillon and it is about 5 years old. Apparently you can't keep bouillon that long. Unless you like leggy seasoning. And then some could argue the added protein is good for you. I, for one, don't like leggy soup or seasonings so the whole pot was dumped.

So was the bouillon.

What we cheer for!

I've been watching some ads on t.v. that advertise a trip to Disneyland. You've probably seen them too. The ones where the parents have surprised their kids with a trip to Disneyland and the kids start cheering and screaming with excitement.

I went to the Bishop's storehouse the other day for my first ever food order. It was an interesting first. I remember a couple of years ago sitting with sisters filling out THEIR food order. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought it would be my turn in a couple of years. Never. But it happened. (and, by the way, how thankful I am for it!!!)

So I brought the groceries home and asked my kids to go out to the car and help carry groceries in. My kids went out to the car, and just like the kids on the commercials, started screaming and cheering that we had food.

It was a moment not to be forgotten. And now it really won't because it's here.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

My Weakness

I have found my limit! I have found my red light. I've discovered what I CAN'T do.

I know that I CAN run a 200+ mile relay race over 2 days.
I can run my house. I can run 3 businesses at a time, be Relief Society president and full time mom all at once.
I can raise 4 crazy kids.
I can live through a ruptured tubal pregnancy (barely made that one!)
I can live through 11 miscarriages and make the decision to not try any more.
I can lose a house and car. Well, I know where they are- just not in my possession anymore.
I can lose our 3 businesses we worked so hard to make successful.
I can lose property and valuable "things".
I can live through parents getting divorced (although the stitches in my heart are still mending) (***EDIT: Ken and Chrys are still very much married and in love! I do consider Geoff's parents my own as well. Sorry about such confusion!!! Stop the gossip quickly!)
I can live through unkind things said about me and nurturing a budding desire to forgive.
I can move several hundred miles away from my parents who have lived down the street from me and my kids for 14 of our 16 years of marriage.
I can move away from all my friends who I love and admire.
I can live everyday wondering where the money will come from for the next bill.
I'm living through the scary thought of one of my kids having a brain tumor.
I can do hard things. I can. I do.

But what I can't do is be without Geoff! He's been gone for 3 weeks and I've got 2 more to go. Time can't move fast enough. I'm falling apart.
I'm so in love with my husband.